Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Cadbury's Crunchie
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Great Expectations
I know what's going on with myself. I've been committing the unending error of allowing myself to harbour...great expectations. This has heightened my disappointment in certain aspects of my life each and every time, even though I've earnestly sought to avoid it.
It's just hard, to have expected something all your life and find that it doesn't quite measure up...I don't really know what to do. Right now, I just need to have faith. Faith that everything will be alright, faith that God will give me my chances, and faith that there is someone out there who is willing to wait for me to be a better person, whether they know me now or in future.
It's just hard, to have expected something all your life and find that it doesn't quite measure up...I don't really know what to do. Right now, I just need to have faith. Faith that everything will be alright, faith that God will give me my chances, and faith that there is someone out there who is willing to wait for me to be a better person, whether they know me now or in future.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
somewhere in my secret heart
a first time for everything
I haven't been sleeping early cos I always go to bed feeling dissatisfied or upset for some reason or find I have nothing to look forward to in the morning. I'm 20 and I have nothing to look forward to in the morning.
Did I lose myself somewhere?
Maybe I should have taken better care of myself...Somewhere along the way, I feel like I might have just let go...and now I don't know where to find...me.
I lost so many tears this past year or so...And about a year or more ago I gave thanks for the absence of such an experience in my life. I guess there's no one to blame except myself.
I just wonder why, at this age, things I'd hoped would already have clarified themselves still remain to be everyday enigmas for me.
lovely. everything should be so lovely if I was only just a little less confused most of the time.
Did I lose myself somewhere?
Maybe I should have taken better care of myself...Somewhere along the way, I feel like I might have just let go...and now I don't know where to find...me.
I lost so many tears this past year or so...And about a year or more ago I gave thanks for the absence of such an experience in my life. I guess there's no one to blame except myself.
I just wonder why, at this age, things I'd hoped would already have clarified themselves still remain to be everyday enigmas for me.
lovely. everything should be so lovely if I was only just a little less confused most of the time.
Saturday, December 05, 2009
redaer
Thursday, December 03, 2009
reclamation 101
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
ulterior
wish it didn't have to hurt. wish it didn't have to bleed, when all you wanted was for it to go away; shrink a little maybe. now it's just there; red, and sore. I don't know what to do. The recommended remedy hasn't worked.
Last night, I dreamt of friends who no longer talk to me, and those who talk to me without really saying anything. Maybe I'm just no good at these things. Maybe Louis XIV was just lonely *shrugs*
